Valuable vs. Expensive
This week I learned a lesson. On one hand it was an expensive lesson. I made decision to commit to something that took me away from a job that could have paid between $300 and $600 for a day. I’m self employed with a daughter getting ready to head to college and a car that is not running at the moment and that money certainly could have come in handy.
The commitment I made was to sing at church. We were putting together an a cappella version of Crazy Train by Ozzy Ozbourne. All the instruments as well as the vocals were to be performed vocally. Don’t ask. It was for a specific message, and at the time seemed likes an interesting and creative idea. Once the parts were figured out they were recorded to mp3 and sent out for those involved to rehearse.
Now, I’m a big Ozzy fan from back in the day so I’m very familiar with his songs and Crazy Train was no exception. As soon as I listened to the recordings and tried to do my part, which was probably the easiest out of the group, the lead vocals, I determined there was a problem. I couldn’t do it. I couldn’t find or keep the right key. I have a slight case of OCD so the other sounds were distracting and confusing. Immediately, I had serious doubts about being able to perform this song this way. I also had doubts about whether it would even work anyway. Whether the audience would get it or even recognize it. I voiced that opinion some but not strongly enough or soon enough to the right people.
The day of group rehearsal and the first day we were supposed to do this song came around, yesterday, and it was quite apparent very early that this was not working. I guess I hoped that once we were all together it would all fall into place and work itself out. That did not happen. So the decision was made to cut the song.
So, here I am with nothing to do and out a decent amount of money. That’s where the valuable lesson comes in though. I tend to have a good sense for what I can and can’t accomplish. So, I don’t tend to stray into uncharted territory unless I know I will succeed. What often appears as confidence is often simply a surety that I can do something. This philosophy has led me to and through many successes and few failures. I do believe whole heartedly that one learns more from their failures than from their successes however I still tend to avoid things that I sense I will fail at. Well, I feel that God had a different plan in this case. This was an embarrassing and expensive lesson but far more valuable than the money lost. I’ve certainly gained some humility and during the time I would have been rehearsing and performing I made some connections with some people that I might not have otherwise made. Thank you Lord, for presenting this lesson and for seeing me through it.